No to Bintan

I hate myself for being coerced into going Bintan coming this October. I wished I had more will and guts to turn them down. I really do not wish to spent the much awaited non-working-saturday with my colleagues, after spending half of my waking hours with them on most days. SIGH... And the worst part is, the proposed holiday doesn't seem abit like any holiday to me. food planned for the 2 days are canned bake beans, luncheon meat, hotdogs, eggs, bread and instant noodles lugged all the way from SINAGPORE. Bintan food's dirt cheap, so i just do not understand why do we need to burden ourselves with all the heavy barang-barangs and disgusting food.

I wish they could just leave me alone.....

Searching high & low...

where are you my camera? I miss you, i need you. I'm depressed.... having searched every single corner of my room, i am now clueless where else can you be... SIGHZ...
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*sniffles*

what are the chances that you get married to the wrong guy? i wish i had the skills to look into the mirror and tell myself confidently that my spouse-picking skills are perfect and there'll absolutely be zilch chance that i'll spend my life with the wrong guy.

looking on the bright side, things are still as rosy as ever. only that i wish it'll get rosier as we age together.

have been feeling under the weather for like the past 3 weeks. the flu bug is such a pest. with loads of medication from the docs, i still cant manage to free myself from it. not to mention, having ample rest is almost out of the question as taking medical leave is just so tormenting. sigh... no wonder the fortune teller say working life is just so not for me. which i literally translate it into... i can only lead a tai-tai life! LOL. tmr's mon. and just when i tot the flu had long gone, it hit me again. see, i said i'm allergic to work.

insomnia is just so annoying. to hell with the docs who dun dispense sleeping pills to desperate insomniacs. i think i need to see a psychiatrist.

Brazil lost in this morning's quarter finals! OMG!!!

uninteresting life

i want to do another course. a cfa this time round. but daddy has been pressing me to do a mba. i don't think i can qualify for one, for i do not have a 5-year managerial work experience under my belt. mummy said it has always been daddy's dream that i do him proud by being an mba holder. tough chance i told her. lazy n undisciplined, i can't possibly be one. however much i want to be a cfa chartered member, i am worried that i am not able to survive through the 3 grueling years of juggles between work and studies. but the average annual pay of $130k for a cfa holder is just so god damn intriguing. i want that!

have yet to spend a single cent this gss. i think i will step foot in orchard this sunday. i need to spice up my wardrobe lots, for i have not been shopping for the past months. i need accessories, more dresses and much more tops. am so prepared to spend a fortune to doll the dull looking me. spending too much time in the aunties-populated workplace really made me place almost zilch attention to my outlook nowadays. am so guilt-stricken now. injustice done to myself! and so, i need to do some good to me again...

sis' coming back in a few days time for her 21st. have yet to decide wat to get for her. my brain's dead, i cant think...

life's really been so mandane. work, dinner and then bedtime at 11 on most days. no time for books, online chats, catching up with the girfriends and daydreaming. i hate my unhappening life, i hate my job. most importantly, i hate having the discipline to hog sufficient sleep every night. it makes my night life so restricted, my life so irksome!!!
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Dilemma, A Very Huge One

Life's been tremendously stressful. Self-inflicted undue stress... Is it time for the huge committment? Should we go ahead with it? Are we doing the right thing? God, i need dierections and wisdom. I have till next wed, and then I'll take whatever that comes...

A Well-deserved Hiatus

Yeah! I'm finally able to take a break! A pretty long one, from today till next tue. Have been looking forward to this celebrated holiday so much. And yes! we're leaving for a shopping spree in Hong Kong come this thurs; but not before i finish up my home assignment...

A little update here: i'm now solely in-charge of payroll in my dad's firm amidst holding a super busy day job. a very steep learning curve here coz there're tons of things to fathom and to bear in mind while calculating how much each worker pockets monthly. Still I think i'm coping well enough to work independently after 2 mths of very unclear instructions though. Attribute it to my pro-active nature and my being a fast learner. Haa... ok, actually those were descriptions of yours truly from my day job appraiser.

Oh and talking about me just being appraised.... i'm really hoping i'll get a fat increment after my appraisal has been finalised once i'm back to work next wk. *pray really hard* sigh... it seems pretty not possible for the company to dish out attractive increment though, from my fellow colleagues' past experiences...

life's been not too bad. nothing disappointing or smthing worth celebrating has had happened during my 'disappearance'. actually i'm living quite a mundane life to be exact.

It's been a while since i'd read a good book. i think i should utilize my week-long break to unwind with my bestest companion whenever i'm not running amok in Hong Kong. Hee..

The boyfriend and i are planning for another short trip to either Bangkok, Krabi or Darwin (if we feel rich) at the end of the year. Anyone keen to join us?
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Money issue

Suddenly, i'm so broke this mth. Sigh.... Living on a shoestring budget sucks big time! Wonder where all my money go to lately....

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YAY! We're going to Hong Kong in 2 months time! Good food, great shopping with excellent companion, awww.... wat else to say...

He said he's going to plan for our first honeymoon trip next July. 27 July 2007; the significant date. Exactly a decade ago from that date we made a pact to meet at that exact location in the airport. Irregardless of whether we're still in the relationship or not, we are to meet there and then, to take flight to a far and romantic place.  Now, almost 9 years after we made that promise at the viewing gallery, it's still sending butterflies to my tummy whenever I think of the up-coming quixotic odyssey.  Spain or Paris?  London or San Fransico?  But for that long haul rendevzous, I have to compromise on the size of my rock.  whatever he says.....

Time's passing by too quickly for me to grasp what had been happening in my life lately.  Now that i'm sitting back n relax infront of my pc, it's such a great pity to realise that nothing exciting has been occuring.  Life's been revolving around work, the boyfriend and sleep.  Everything's too fast-paced.  I can hardly breathe.  I'm in a race.  A very competitive one.  Actually, I'm in numerous races.  To succeed in my career, to clinch that rock, to settle down and then to get that perfect house, to warrant indefinite love, to be the best life-partner, to fulfil my many desires, to bring constant smiles to my parents'  faces, to be a good sister, etc.  It's so taxing to stay afloat in this throat-cutting place...

To

Tough indeed

Now i hate planning to set up a home to be called our own. Comments & instructions from the parents, and the different opinions between the two of us are driving me insane. Maybe we should just remain status quo. Sigh....
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